Its been a long time but im back.......

The last time I posted I was going through a hard time but things are looking up :-)

I work fulltime at a daycare Mohammed is doing great with his speech therapy he still signs a lot of babbles but he surprises us with sentences  my grandfather passed away which was a shock cause we went to visit him and the next day he was gone. He was almost 95 so he lived well!

I got the best news on my 26 birthday I had this weird feeling I was pregnant so I bought myself a test and holy crap it was positive!!! At 8 weeks I went for a ultrasound to make sure this one was viable

I am now 13 weeks pregnant and see my midwife in 8 days and I'm scared  I decided not to get the test for downs as in my religion we don't abort and I wouldn't ever so I skipped it.
I want to tell people soon and this is how

**if you are my friend on Facebook please don't post anything until I do as we want to wait a bit longer**

new blog

i started a new blog on just cooking and baking. I have always LOVED to bake just never the time. i cannot wait till Mohammed gets older so he can help me.

http://canadianhijabi.wordpress.com/

Now what can i rant about lets see what happened this week OH.... i had my worker out we go back to court soon to end all the orders they have one my family which is good but she wants someone to come out and pretty much treat us to parent WTH haven't i been doing this for the last 20 months of my sons life!!!! yes my son does sleep on the floor but thats his choice he had a crib he never would sleep in and yes he now has a toddler bed he prefers the floor nothing i can do im not fighting with him its safe he cant get hurt why bother...

She also wants us to do parenting classes again ima freaking RECE i went to school for this i know how to parent a child i work at a daycare i dont need help lol.

My husband brought me flowers for our engagement anniversary

The last year was hell

Its been a hard year first being removed from my house due to certain circumstances, raising a child alone then my father in law passing away, my miscarrige and trying to get pregnant

I found outing July that I was pregnant I was so excited but I wasn't feeling pregnant no morning sickness nothing I knew something wasn't right. At 6 weeks I went to the hospital was sent for a early pregnancy scan when I was 7 weeks I was told it wasn't measuring right at 8 weeks I started bleeding I knew it was gone. I took pills to start the process of giving birth? 2 days after the Dr pulled the baby out and everything went back to normal so did my life. I mean it had to right?...

My father in law passed away in Oct after his fight with cancer I remember sitting in my living room when he told us. I lost it I knew it wouldn't be a winning fight. We spent a lot of time with him even when he could no longer talk or recognize us. We visited for kostas birthday and when we got the call at 4 in the morning that he had past away we rushed there to say a finally goodbye  it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do

I moved back home and had a lot to deal with when it come to Mohammed. He didn't want to go to Kostas he only wanted me, it took along time to get things normal again.

Since things settled down I am trying to get pregnant lets see what happens

The Beginning of a beautiful friendship

Like every great blog you start off with a story of the writer so here we go. Because I dont want people knowing who I really am except for a few I'm going to use our Muslim names. I'm Aaliyah I have been a Muslim for 8 years I've been wearing hijab for 7. I have my Early Childhood Education diploma and I work at a daycare. I am married to a Greek convert named kostas he's been Muslim for 4 years. We have a beautiful son named mohammed he is 2 in June and the love of my life. The last year so much has changed and there is so much that I want to vent to anyone who is listening. Things in my life, my community, things in the world that i may be seeing differently than others I just need my own place wherein can be me!